His promise from Proverbs 3:5,6:
Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
to whom God has willed to make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory,
But the anointing that you received from him abides in you, and you have no need that anyone should teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about everything, and is true, and is no lie—just as it has taught you, abide in him.
It all started with waking up with a migraine. I’d hoped that a hot shower would make it go away, so when it didn’t, I took two pain-killers then went back into bed for a little while with an ice pack. Again hoping, praying the pain would leave quickly so I could get to work. After all, I can’t afford another day away (I said to myself). 45 minutes later still no better, I text HR at work simply stating: “out, migraine”.
Having lived with head pain on and off for 20+ years, I thank God for these headaches being identified as migraines because when I first arrived in the USA, I just knew I had headaches, but had no name for them, nor any known method for treating them.
I’m so grateful that after all the doctors and tests I had in the early years, that a drug named Inderol could be used as a daily preventive treatment, and reduce the likelihood of them occurring at all.
Finally, I’m thankful that most of the migraine triggers are known to me now: too little sleep from too many consecutive late nights, certain foods like red wine, MSG, chocolate, and finally anxiousness, worry or concern with work; what most would call stress. Thankfully migraines are infrequent nowadays.
So having one is unusual, it immediately gets my attention and I ask “Lord what is the purpose behind this pain, for others, or for me?”
In the old days I would be angry, believing I was a victim of a terrible injustice, often saying I wanted to put a gun to my head to avoid the pain. I’m sure my family remembers those days when I would lie down because of the pain, and in doing so was completely unavailable to be with them.
Nowadays, migraines definitely get my attention. In fact the last time I had one it lasted for some days in late April, for a whole week. That was the week before I heard my Lord invite me to walk by faith and not sight, and how I finally learned what real love is all about.
Nowadays we listen to the still small inner voice that we call God.
To me it is the absolute truth, to those who believe, and have come to learn to walk by faith, by the inner conviction, confirmation and witness, regardless of how things may sound, or appear – we no longer respond to the soul spirit swing. All I do nowadays is speak of what we know, and tell of what we’ve seen (and experienced).
So knowing of all the triggers for a migraine, Tuesday evening, after an anxious day at work, I resorted to my old habit of comfort eating to offset my anxious feelings of being ‘sent to Coventry’, an expression when your coworkers ignore you all day long and appear to be less cooperative and conversational than they had formally been.
Even though Sue gently suggested I avoid these foods, I didn’t even hear her kind words of encouragement to avoid them. I was blinded by my anxiety and frustration. Scoffing down BBQ MSG laden chips, and handfuls of Halloween candy I lived for that moment.
Nowadays we no longer believe in ‘good’ and ‘bad’ as we had done in days of our blindness, we no longer eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but eat from the tree of life seeing with a single eye. But all action have consequences and outcomes, some which we may not enjoy.
Sue said before she left for work that she got down on her knees and prayed for my recovery and for Tony to find his purpose because she couldn’t carry on with this not knowing if Tony was going to go work or not each day. She came upstairs and told me that she’d prayed, and the Lord told her he would take the headache away.
I awoke around 11am; headache pain had subsided much as Sue said the Lord told her it would. My immediate thought was to reconfirm our go forward purpose and plan, as best I knew how, from the light my Lord had provided since April 27th, when I accepted His invitation to walk by faith and not sight, and everything changed, and my life got rearranged.
Specifically this means that I would work in some capacity serving those whom the Lord sent my way with whatever skills or services to help them — love them as I love myself – by listening, planning, social media, WordPress, flowcharting, videos, training etc. Much as I had already been doing this year until I got myself sidetracked following the perceived need for money, when my Lord had already made it clear that He is the provider, and our family budget was and is okay just the way it is. While my current draw from my retirement means I’d run out of resources by 2017, some adjustment was was needed and that’s what yesterday planning was about.
All the housework chores that Sue normally performed would become my responsibility: cooking, cleaning, washing, bills, home projects etc. My proposal included continuing to serve those whom my Lord sent, transfer of responsibilities, and reducing my draw from my retirement fund.
When Sue came home, we prayed together and sat in front of the monitor and I explained, much like I would have down in the workplace to a project sponsor, what our go forward purpose and plan was for the coming season. We talked for around 90 minutes, pausing briefly for our daughter’s FaceTime call. These calls are another way my Father’s love action takes priority in my life now – family first. We closed our time together in prayer, thanking our Lord for answering Sue’s prayer so quickly; anxiety gone, purpose, path, and peace restored.
My final thought comes from the Ravenhill family, “A man or women with an experience is never at the mercy of a man or women with an argument.”
This experience is now part of many God intervention stories in my own life, in our life, and in and through our family and it’s restoration to His divine purposes.
Ask the Lord for opportunities to share your His-story too.
What has God been doing on your life lately?