by Norman P. Grubb
Just as an apple seed can bring forth only an apple tree, with apples being its only fruit (some good for eating and some not), so too the seed of Satan can bring forth only Satanic fruit, some good and some bad. Therefore, we cannot easily give up our total selves and move into our God relationship until we know that there never was any good in ourselves – Romans 7:18 I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. i.e., until we know the lie of independent self.
We cause great offense to our fellow believers when we make such statements of faith as this one: “once only Satan—I, now only Christ—I”.
They still think of us as having a sinful nature. As a result, our opposition often comes from churches and pastors so long accustomed to self—condemnation in our apparent sins and failures.
To them, it is like blasphemy to say nothing was ever wrong with our human selfhood. This is why this stride of faith (really only the acknowledgment of fact in Christ) is well called by Kierkegaard (who deeply knew the human self) “the leap of faith”.
When taken, it must be as serious and openly confessed and once—for—all as was our faith step into receiving Christ. Once made, it is as marked an act as a marriage vow and ceremony. It took me five hours in a Congo forest to say with finality that I, Norman Grubb, have been crucified with Christ and thus, in His death to sin, I have died to sin as an in¬dweller.
And then to say the Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. But no! There is no such thing as independent living and therefore, with Paul, to say, “Yet not I, but Christ lives in me “ (where before it had been Satan living in me). That was as far as I really got on that crisis occasion, confessing with my mouth, together with my precious wife doing the same, by writing my statement on an old envelope which was all I had deep in that for¬est. But, once said, my confession of faith became fixed and was never to be gone back on.
Simple As This by Norman Grubb